It Breaks My Heart That I Cannot Fix Him, My Grandson

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As many of you know my three-year old grandson Isaiah was diagnosed with Autism last year. It was a bitter-sweet diagnosis. Sweet because answers to our questions like why does he flap his arms when he gets excited?, why does he get so angry?, why doesn’t he talk?, why does he line his toys up in a row?, why does he cover his ears when he hears certain sounds or watches certain shows? and many more were answered: And Bitter because no one wants their loved one to have Autism or any other dis-ease.

It breaks my heart because when I look into Isaiah’s eyes I see a beautiful child that is full of life. And it breaks my heart that I cannot fix him. It takes a lot to fully grasp your mind around the fact that something is different about your grandchild when he looks absolutely normal. It is also difficult for others that do not know he has Autism to also deal with.

I can say that Isaiah’s Autism makes me look at life in a whole new light. I appreciate the little things in life that I once would have let pass by, because Isaiah appreciates the little things in life. I observe him as he plays and watches television and it does not take much to amuse him or capture his curiosity. This makes me truly appreciate of what we have in a day and age where many are slaves to modern technology.

If you feel your loved one has Autism I urge you to get them tested. It will make your life and their life much easier. Since Isaiah has been diagnosed we as a family have made huge strides TOGETHER.

Isaiah still does not talk. This has opened up another learning opportunity for our family because we are all learning sign language. It’s pretty cool and less frustrating for all involved to be able to communicate.

Also, my daughter is slowly changing Isaiah’s diet, which has made HUGE changes in the anger management department. She has introduced more gluten-free foods as well as foods that never had gluten in them in the first place into his diet.

10 Responses to It Breaks My Heart That I Cannot Fix Him, My Grandson

  1. Cendrine Marrouat January 14, 2011 at 6:48 PM

    Isaiah is a very cute boy and truly loved. Autism may be seen as a disease, and yet it brought your family together to learn new ways to love someone completely and with no apology. This in itself is a way to turn things around.

    Hugs to the entire family!

    • April Sims January 14, 2011 at 8:35 PM

      Thank you very much Cendrine. You are an amazing friend and I truly appreciate you, your support and positive words.

  2. Isaiah's GG-mom January 14, 2011 at 8:29 PM

    I give my granddaugher Nicole great praise as the best mother for my great grandson Isaiah. She has patience, the right temperment, and is truly committed in dealing with his condition. I’m sure that a lot of people would not be as patient and even recognize that their child has a problem. I know it’s exhausting and very frustrating at times but if you could see my granddaugther Nicole in her dealings with her son Isaiah, you would never know the depths of her exhaustion or frustration. Love to my daughter April for understanding that her grandson Isaiah has a problem and is helping her daugher Nicole work it out. I pray that one day Isaiah will overcome.

    To my daughter April I pray that “this too will pass” so that your heart can mend.

    • April Sims January 14, 2011 at 8:37 PM

      Awwwww … Ma – You know I am a punk and your words made me cry. Your strength and determination runs through our veins.

      Like you I too commend Nicole’s love and patience. I am also glad that I can be there for her when she is exhausted.

      • Nicole June 29, 2012 at 7:39 PM

        Awww! You guys are so sweet! I know that I am uber late, but this made me smile. Love you guys and thanks for all your support with Isaiah. You guys are priceless 🙂

  3. Tiffany January 15, 2011 at 6:24 AM

    My 4 3/4 year old son was diagnosed at 2 1/2. It’s a struggle but if the whole family works together- he can make progress! There are many special gifts that children with autism have that others don’t and we have learned to value those. We do the gluten free diet and I know our common friend from a Serendipitous Journey has shared my information with you.

    My words of wisdom: Leave that stress and frustration with God. You can’t fix him because he’s not broken! God has given your family a very special assignment that will open your eyes, hearts and minds in a way you never imagine. Embrace that challenge and be the perfect family little Isaiah so he can grown and thrive and achieve that special goal that God has planned for him!

    Always here for you, girl!!!

    • April Sims January 15, 2011 at 10:37 AM

      Thank you very much Tiffany for your words of wisdom. My family appreciates them as well as other families that will read this post.

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